I know i know i dont update enough. Strangely though, i have this compelling need in me to sit down and organize my thought into coherent sentences today. So.. here I am. (:
im into my 6th week of school already. Things are getting hectic and i find myself trying to catch my breath, trying not to trip, trying hard to catch up, trying not to go too fast, trying to maintain perspective, trying to maintain an ounce of myself, trying to fit in, trying not to fit in too much, trying to keep links with outside friends, trying to make time for myself. Trying trying trying all the time.
Everyone's asking me how's uni life? how's living in hall? To date i still dont really have an answer. i guess im just overwhelmed. Overwhelmed by the need to adapt fast and by the need to not change too much. Its quite a dilemma i think.
Shalt take a moment to reflect. The past 2 months of my life had seemed like eternity.
The Good:
Kent Ridge Hall really feels like a home away from home to me now. My room's pretty and decorated, my bed comfy and the accessibility to school reduces my crankiness level by almost 99%. I have wonderful neighbours, great friends and really sweet people in my block that made uni so much more enjoyable. I got into KR dance and NUS dance blast and realised just how much i miss dancing in a studio and working up a sweat with friends. School structure is starting to make sense. I finally understand how to write a philosophy essay thanks to Ivan and Brian. My nights are spent if not studying, chatting with the night gang of neh,wl,mel,andrew,william etc etc. I havent lost my starbucks bottle yet. I completed my week 6, had a test, finished a project report and handed up a individual assignment without feeling like shit. I have a new crush. (:
The Bad:
I miss fyl, i miss sherlynn elizabeth charlotte lee, i miss boys and girls gang, i miss weeminyu, i miss jean and foong and the rest, i miss all the people that ive been neglecting due to school. hall life really takes up everything in you. your outside social circle, your studies, your sleep, your relationship etc and the problem underlying it is that while you're highly annoyed it does that, you cant help but enjoy hall life so much still that you allow the gradual taking over to happen. I cannot count the number of nights i sit down in my room to start on a reading only to be called for block meeting, supper, game night, emo chit chatting, drinking sessions and all. I need to seriously prioritize properly. school was killing me. though im starting now to make sense of it all, it still overwhelms me. on the scale of 1 to 10, poly is like a 3. and uni a 8 or 9. This is especially apparent in arts where you are expected to have strong views on anything and everything that happens and excellent skills to coherently express your views on paper. Finding myself slipping from time to time. Much as i hate to acknowledge it, maybe its really because of the poly education. Like minyu had said. arts is a very JC subject, people come to arts from arts stream in JC, well equipped with skills to write history, geog and lit essays. Im not. but im trying. and if im gonna go down, im gonna go down fighting hahha
miss my family and miss good food.. :(
again.. im bored of writing. haha i needa learn how to post short posts. shalt upload some pictures soon. haha but then again.. are you sure you wanna trust me?
havent slept properly in 2 days. really really sick now.. |
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